VEGAS UPDATE

Hi.

I'm in Las Vegas.

I have not been gambling much, but I think that is for the best.

There are four different Cirque shows out here. I went to Zumanity tonight--which is the "risque" one . . . basically it means that they are topless and naked and a lot of it has to do with sex. And just imagine some of the stuff that cirque does (like the partnering stuff) almost nude and way passionate. It was fucking unbelievable. It is funny and amazing and makes me want to change my life completely every time I see it. I wish I could do something (anything) that beautifully. And of course, it also reminded me of Phil a bit too. (The weird thing is that as I put more time between a lot of my relationships, the memories do start to fade . . . but the emotions that accomponied the memories stick. I barely remember faces and conversations and instances, but boy, do I remember what it is like to be in love.)

Oh, and the Bellagio water thing is one of the most incredible things I have ever seen in my life. I only really saw "Hey Big Spender" . . . but I was utterly amazed at how sexy and beautiful water and lights could be. I think I want to go get a cigar or two and go sit outside and watch it for hours tomorrow.

(Oh, and other things: Hoover dam is also unbelievable. I have met some great teachers. I have had some good food. I have met some eccentric people. I took some deserving teachers in a limo. And generally had a really, really nice time. I wish I had some old friends with me though.)

And my purse is freaking filled with cards for hookers . . . which are distributed with a snappy flick on the pack . . .